I don't know why but I've never felt this great in a long time. School has been taking over my life, just things in life haven't gone the way I've wanted them to. But now, you know that saying "every thing happens for a reason" ? Yeah, well I feel that I can see that reason. I feel free, even though I know I'm as trapped and constricted as ever, even thought I'm under the kind of pressure that I have never been under my life. I'm enjoying life, even though this has been the worst possible year in my life. Things are starting to fit together, and by that I mean in a good way.

At school, I think this year and next year will go down as the hardest years ever, but if you take enough time to look deep into those two years, I don't think we'll ever learn as much in any other year that we have learnt this year and will learn next year. For myself, this year has been a complete roller coaster, I started the year overseas on a holiday, the year started off with the bang. Then, unfortunately the year started to feel like it was getting out of my own control, in school I mean. Things were getting too pressuring, I saw things that I never thought would happen. This was sort of like the year that every one came out of their little hiding places and showed who they really were. But there were those who remained the same, and these are those who I doubt will ever change.

So, yes, I'm wrapping up my school year a week and 3 days before it really comes to and end, next term is a whole new beginning. I think this year has been a great year of learning for myself personally. I learnt never to let go and there was always this poem that I found somewhere ages ago that was hiding away in my diary, when I found it I thought "that is so true" it's called hold on to a dream .I'll see where I got it from, i think it was off the net so yeah. I think that poem summed up my year at school very well. It's a nice poem.

Hmmm... that's school for you. Out of school things have been good, let's call it normal shall we. My first doggies game live... had  a hell of a great time, I think that day will go down as one of the best days, saying goodbye to people you admire and have gotten so used to isn't easy.
That 5 minute video clip has etched itself into my heart, very clearly. After weeks and weeks of thinking this can't come to an end, next week I'm afraid to say it will come to an end. And that is why I'm going to enjoy every second of knowing that the next game I'll see the man in a blue and white jersey. I would like to say that there is still a great deal of time left, but there isn't. However in saying that, I know I'll see El Magic in a suit with a blue and white tie. I'll miss you Magic.

This whole week, I have done nothing but study, but now just letting my self free feels so great. I feel free. Damn Religion though, I have another one tomorrow, but I haven't done much and don't plan on doing much either. I can't wait till 10:30 tomorrow when I can get out of those school gates and officially say that year 11 is Over! Not that I'm looking forward to year 12 or anything. lol

Then I'll brace myself for what will be the game of the season, the sydney spectacular, my Bulldogs against that Parra pests... sorry I like parra I think they have great up and coming tallent and ofcourse who could forget Haynsie. But when anyone plays against my boys, I can't think anything positive of the oponnent. I can't wait to see Noddy back on field, and I know how much confidence his return gives to the other boys, and especially the guys who are inexperienced. I want to see Mennis all fired up, just like the week we beat the knights.... sheesh he's got passion, that's just one reason out of a billion why I feel proud to be a Doggs supporter.

Everyone in my family says the dogs are gonna lose, I still haven't said anything because there is that tiny voice inside my head that keeps saying " A legend's last season" so yeah. But I still love many of the parra players, they're like the broncs for me, just full of great players. Hayne, Hindie, Cayless, Mortimer, and many others. The hype for this game is so great... I love hearing bout league on the news, all the good things and heaps about the actual sport. Can't wait... BRING ON PARRA!!!

Now that the Exams are over, kind of I can get back to reading, my art and graphics ... See this is why I'm happy.
GOOD LUCK BOYS!!!!!!

Ok, so I haven't posted in ages. I promised someone I'd post so here it is.  This week has been rather ... normal... like always. They have picked our SRC group, I'm quite ok with most of them, but there are a few that I would prefer not to be up there, but then again they are the oobvious ones so you can't do anything bout it. ( so... )

Last night I sat on the couch at 7:30 pm and made my self comfortable. I did no move at all, the tribute at the beginning brought shivers and to think for 4 years I haven't seen my state win it brought this sense of determination. I wanted the Blues to win so badly, because to me it was no dead rubber. No.1 there were three dogs on that field that were out to prove themselves to their state and to the selectors, I don't think any one of them hurt their chances for next year. No. 2 not only would the Maroons have made history, they would have also done it with a clean sweep with nothing to worry about. That game was everything that  an origin game needs to be. The biff is back!!

( The Blues will never give up  )

I'm finally on holidays!!!
I have been waiting so long for these holidays to arrive. 5 days gone and I still want to argue that the holidays need to be EXTENDED.. I am dead serious, we all need it specially the seniors. Any ways all I can do is complain, nothing is going to change, and even if it does it will have no effect on me as it will change after I leave school. ( In Nod we believe )

So,
I'm nearly on holidays . Just a few more days to go .
The greatest news for me has been El Magic's announcement of his retirement . Since supporting the dogs I've never really got to feel the bittersweet moments of such a great player retiring. Stevie Price leaving was sort of different, because I knew that I'd see him round , even if not in the blue and white. It will be like the SBW walkout, in the sense that I won't see such an awsome player play again. But nothing else. I think Haz is one of the most respectable men in league, he is just so humble and kind. He will come out of his way to do anything , and that's what is so respectable about him. I have read his book and after reading that I understand how far he has come. I hope that he gets some kind of position at the club. That would be paying back just a part of what he has given to the club. All I can say is I adore the man.
I didn't hear the announcement, but i have read article after article regarding his retirement. I honestly believe that Hazem has always played at his best, that is just shown by all the different records he holds.
Another thing is , how many players do you see play for only one team for 300+ game and support them even when they go through absolute dirt. This is loyalty. If players like Willie Mason and SBW want to know the true definition for loyalty, they need to take a good hard look at Haz. I know that even after he leaves his memories will be long lived in the hearts of all the fans, young and old.
There is no NRL supporter that can say they dislike Haz, there is no reason to critisise him , he is just the best player that I have seen take the field in the times that I have watched league and he will never be replaced.
I just can't use words to describe how I feel about the fact that he is going to leave, that next year I'm not going to be sure that our tries are going to give us 6 points, it's just awkward. The thing is everyone is saying who's gonna fill in his boots, I have one thing to say. NO ONE CAN FILL IN THE BOOTS OF HAZ. Haz is amazing and no one is ever going to be like him.
Lastly, i just hope that for all he has done during his time at the club , we can send him off with a premiership win, a dream finish. He deserves it more than anyone I can think of. I will cry on his last game, tears of joy and happiness that the most amazing man I have seen play rugby league, played in the blue and white jersey his whole life. What an amazing feeling that is.
All I've got to say now is that the boys need to get things together and win this thing, for Hazem's sake.
Hazem El Masri , El magic, Magic boots , whatever you call him , he is one of the most amazing players to ever don a NRL jersey.
HE IS A LEGEND.