life is all a stage

good times are here

2009-09-24T04:03:08Z

I don't know why but I've never felt this great in a long time. School has been taking over my life, just things in life haven't gone the way I've wanted them to. But now, you know that saying "every thing happens for a reason" ? Yeah, well I feel that I can see that reason. I feel free, even though I know I'm as trapped and constricted as ever, even thought I'm under the kind of pressure that I have never been under my life. I'm enjoying life, even though this has been the worst possible year in my life. Things are starting to fit together, and by that I mean in a good way.

At school, I think this year and next year will go down as the hardest years ever, but if you take enough time to look deep into those two years, I don't think we'll ever learn as much in any other year that we have learnt this year and will learn next year. For myself, this year has been a complete roller coaster, I started the year overseas on a holiday, the year started off with the bang. Then, unfortunately the year started to feel like it was getting out of my own control, in school I mean. Things were getting too pressuring, I saw things that I never thought would happen. This was sort of like the year that every one came out of their little hiding places and showed who they really were. But there were those who remained the same, and these are those who I doubt will ever change.

So, yes, I'm wrapping up my school year a week and 3 days before it really comes to and end, next term is a whole new beginning. I think this year has been a great year of learning for myself personally. I learnt never to let go and there was always this poem that I found somewhere ages ago that was hiding away in my diary, when I found it I thought "that is so true" it's called hold on to a dream .I'll see where I got it from, i think it was off the net so yeah. I think that poem summed up my year at school very well. It's a nice poem.

Hmmm... that's school for you. Out of school things have been good, let's call it normal shall we. My first doggies game live... had a hell of a great time, I think that day will go down as one of the best days, saying goodbye to people you admire and have gotten so used to isn't easy.
That 5 minute video clip has etched itself into my heart, very clearly. After weeks and weeks of thinking this can't come to an end, next week I'm afraid to say it will come to an end. And that is why I'm going to enjoy every second of knowing that the next game I'll see the man in a blue and white jersey. I would like to say that there is still a great deal of time left, but there isn't. However in saying that, I know I'll see El Magic in a suit with a blue and white tie. I'll miss you Magic.

This whole week, I have done nothing but study, but now just letting my self free feels so great. I feel free. Damn Religion though, I have another one tomorrow, but I haven't done much and don't plan on doing much either. I can't wait till 10:30 tomorrow when I can get out of those school gates and officially say that year 11 is Over! Not that I'm looking forward to year 12 or anything. lol

Then I'll brace myself for what will be the game of the season, the sydney spectacular, my Bulldogs against that Parra pests... sorry I like parra I think they have great up and coming tallent and ofcourse who could forget Haynsie. But when anyone plays against my boys, I can't think anything positive of the oponnent. I can't wait to see Noddy back on field, and I know how much confidence his return gives to the other boys, and especially the guys who are inexperienced. I want to see Mennis all fired up, just like the week we beat the knights.... sheesh he's got passion, that's just one reason out of a billion why I feel proud to be a Doggs supporter.

Everyone in my family says the dogs are gonna lose, I still haven't said anything because there is that tiny voice inside my head that keeps saying " A legend's last season" so yeah. But I still love many of the parra players, they're like the broncs for me, just full of great players. Hayne, Hindie, Cayless, Mortimer, and many others. The hype for this game is so great... I love hearing bout league on the news, all the good things and heaps about the actual sport. Can't wait... BRING ON PARRA!!!

Now that the Exams are over, kind of I can get back to reading, my art and graphics ... See this is why I'm happy.
GOOD LUCK BOYS!!!!!!

Life in general

2009-08-21T09:28:41Z

Ok, so I haven't posted in ages. I promised someone I'd post so here it is. This week has been rather ... normal... like always. They have picked our SRC group, I'm quite ok with most of them, but there are a few that I would prefer not to be up there, but then again they are the oobvious ones so you can't do anything bout it. So, as you can see, life sucks.
There's nothing much to say, my week has bee filled with exams and assignments, I have 2 more assignments left, after them it's just the exam block and then the year is technically over.
I kind of want this year to be over, but then I don't want it to end because that means I'll be in year 12. And, as there are many good things about being in year 12, there are many bad things as well. We were talking bout how the SRC space needs fixing and how the common room looks like a hole, how we need a new microwave, and possibly a coffee machine , milo, coffee , sugar and a fridge!!!! like shit... i don't want another home at school , but I would like a couch or something in the common area. It would be somewhere nice to sit when you're stressed.
Any ways, that's next year.
I've been thinking of doing a graphics post, but not so sure when to do it and what to put. , I'll see what I can put up from my heap of graphics.
I want Photoshop!!! I'm envying the photography girls right now, specially one in particular who keeps rubbing it in my face that I just don't happen to have photoshop!!! *clears throat*
Well that's bout it , oh yeah and I wasn't the only one that thought Hannnant looks like Bundy Bear, his nickname's polar bear... sorry just had to add that!!!

And Daniel Merewether is not gay...

The biff is back!!

2009-07-16T07:48:58Z

Last night I sat on the couch at 7:30 pm and made my self comfortable. I did no move at all, the tribute at the beginning brought shivers and to think for 4 years I haven't seen my state win it brought this sense of determination. I wanted the Blues to win so badly, because to me it was no dead rubber. No.1 there were three dogs on that field that were out to prove themselves to their state and to the selectors, I don't think any one of them hurt their chances for next year. No. 2 not only would the Maroons have made history, they would have also done it with a clean sweep with nothing to worry about. That game was everything that an origin game needs to be. The biff is back!!

I tuned into many radio stations today and there is no radio station, with the exception of the international ones and the religious ones, that didn't talk about the biff that kind of went on for about 10 minutes to the end of the game.
As I mentioned in my previous post "In Noddy we trust" and he's not a hard player to trust, I think his game yesterday just gave it to all the people out there that thought Noddy was too old for Origin. I know he didn't have a blinder of a game, but he did what a halfback should do he played the way he was told to play. If Wallace was there, I'm pretty sure we would have lost because to be honest all I heard, especially with the commentary it was always Noddy this and Chock that, and there was a few random names being pulled out for the tries. Chock deserved his man of the match.
I can't really remember the whole game with much detail but there are some things that stand out vividly in my mind , the Hodges no try, the kick from JT to the face of wolfman, wolfman's broken face, the two tackles by Noddy and Gidley and finally the last 10 minutes .

My opinions regarding the game:

Biff: That was what Origin is all about, but sadly it was at the cost of a player like Pricey. The first thing that struck me was "is Pricey ok?". Honestly, fighting over the body over an injured player completely covering his body is not great sportsmanship. Justin Hodges, I adore the guy, I mean he's only the best centre in Australia , and his no try showed all the talent he possesses. He is an amazing player, but he is grubby and not the best sportsman. The fact that he urged players from the Blues to go to the sideline and fight was dead pathetic. If you're a player the only place you can fight is on the playing field not out on the sidelines. For some reason it made me think of Hodges as a coward. He also said that he would be sqauring off against Trent Barret when he next plays the sharks, that's not the way a man handles things. Anyway it was a game and was really enjoyable. The biff did add to the entertainment factor of the game and will make awsome promotion come next year.

JT's kick: It was unintentional , knowing the way Thursto plays he doesn't play like that , he plays it fair and square, he's not a dirty player. I am not surprised that he isn't being suspended. That's all I have to say.

Hodges' no try: since this was before the biff and he acted like a complete idiot, it only added to my adoration for him . I have always believed he was an amazing player, if he wasn't that injury prone the broncos would have a very lethal weapon in him. In saying that, that try was nothing beyond amazing in the books of Hodges because he is more than amazing as a player. His last words just ruined the image I had of him for that game. He is a freak with a mouth too big for his own good.

In total, that was an amazing game of football and an amazing origin game, it's a game of hate and that's what we all saw. It was amazing.

Off origin, Dogs are playing the titans on friday, I wish them all the best as always. I think Kimmorley , Ennis and Morris will have a good game on the back of the Origin win. The injured boys are back I think so lets hope they have a great game.

Finally , in my boys I believe.

Oh happy Days

2009-07-15T05:46:12Z

I'm finally on holidays!!!
I have been waiting so long for these holidays to arrive. 5 days gone and I still want to argue that the holidays need to be EXTENDED.. I am dead serious, we all need it specially the seniors. Any ways all I can do is complain, nothing is going to change, and even if it does it will have no effect on me as it will change after I leave school.
So, after losing two games of Origin and allowing the canetoads to make history, the selectors have slightly opened their eyes. Before Origin started they chose a 40 man squad. They said that it was chosen to suit their aim which was to prepare for the future. Ok , answer me this, if the Blues lost this Origin season, which they now have, history would be made, so do you look to the future and say it's ok the cane toads can beat us but after they smash us 5 series straight our team will come into play? What kind of selection panel thinks that way, apart from the one for the Blues? I tell you what, any games that the blues have lost with the selection pannel is not the players fault or that of the coach, it is the selectors' fault for choosing players who obviously aren't up to the level of representing their state at Origin level, or simply aren't playing in form.

There are people who are constantly saying that Craig Bellamy should quit, he has lost us so many games. I don't think so, every time origin camp begins, if I am correct the coach gets to pick his side and the selectors pick their's , then the selectors and the coach sit down and sort out a team, the coach never gets his own team. Gus Gould made it quite clear that through all his years as the coach of the blues, he only got his team of 17 once, his last origin game ever. If Craig is given the side he believes could win origin , maybe he could have saved the blues. I'm going to state names now, for example Craig from day one didn't want Kite in his team, but for 2 damn games the selectors put him in, knowing that he could risk the series for us. So why on Earth are we blaming Bellamy when he doesn't even get a say? He has done what he could with the team that he was given. Bellamy never came out and said anything about the first two sides that he was given, but for the third game which isn't going to save us from anything but a clean sweep, they completly change the team . What happened to their stupid youth policy?

I am now much more satisfied with the team, but still I ask why didn't they choose this team for game one? This team could have saved us the embarrasment . Honestly, i can no comprehend what was in the minds of the selectors when they chose their "Youth policy". Did they choose a team to play this year or to win in 2 years time when the blues fans will be hiding themselves out of shame for the decisions made by the selectors? I am sick of the selectors they need to go.

Other then that I think the team they have picked now is a bit better and based on form. I think the fact they are going to let Gidley play with an injury is asking for him to stuff up, like Farrah did. Instead of Barret I think Mullen should be in but now he's injured so I won't talk. But I honestly think that the team they have chosen now with more players in form this year and less players that were in form last year could have won us this series.I'm just furious that they have picked three of our boys, two of who weren't in the 40 and one which they said was too old and would never come back to origin. Now they're hailing him as our saviour...if he's our saviour why didn't he play in game one?!!!!! This is why queensland win, they keep their players for three games unless injury affects them, the players put their hands up to play for origin and not play for their team when someone is injured, in other words have passion, and they don't have stupid future policies, it's about the present. But our selectors are two up themselves to understand that.

I wish the boys all the luck and hope they come home with a win, if they win the selectors need to go no the coach!!! The coach can win games the selectors are to stupid to pick the right team. If this keep going on, i wouldn't be suprised if we lost few more series as well.

HAZEM EL MAGIC

2009-07-04T07:27:25Z

So,
I'm nearly on holidays . Just a few more days to go .
The greatest news for me has been El Magic's announcement of his retirement . Since supporting the dogs I've never really got to feel the bittersweet moments of such a great player retiring. Stevie Price leaving was sort of different, because I knew that I'd see him round , even if not in the blue and white. It will be like the SBW walkout, in the sense that I won't see such an awsome player play again. But nothing else. I think Haz is one of the most respectable men in league, he is just so humble and kind. He will come out of his way to do anything , and that's what is so respectable about him. I have read his book and after reading that I understand how far he has come. I hope that he gets some kind of position at the club. That would be paying back just a part of what he has given to the club. All I can say is I adore the man.
I didn't hear the announcement, but i have read article after article regarding his retirement. I honestly believe that Hazem has always played at his best, that is just shown by all the different records he holds.
Another thing is , how many players do you see play for only one team for 300+ game and support them even when they go through absolute dirt. This is loyalty. If players like Willie Mason and SBW want to know the true definition for loyalty, they need to take a good hard look at Haz. I know that even after he leaves his memories will be long lived in the hearts of all the fans, young and old.
There is no NRL supporter that can say they dislike Haz, there is no reason to critisise him , he is just the best player that I have seen take the field in the times that I have watched league and he will never be replaced.
I just can't use words to describe how I feel about the fact that he is going to leave, that next year I'm not going to be sure that our tries are going to give us 6 points, it's just awkward. The thing is everyone is saying who's gonna fill in his boots, I have one thing to say. NO ONE CAN FILL IN THE BOOTS OF HAZ. Haz is amazing and no one is ever going to be like him.
Lastly, i just hope that for all he has done during his time at the club , we can send him off with a premiership win, a dream finish. He deserves it more than anyone I can think of. I will cry on his last game, tears of joy and happiness that the most amazing man I have seen play rugby league, played in the blue and white jersey his whole life. What an amazing feeling that is.
All I've got to say now is that the boys need to get things together and win this thing, for Hazem's sake.
Hazem El Masri , El magic, Magic boots , whatever you call him , he is one of the most amazing players to ever don a NRL jersey.
HE IS A LEGEND.

Football, football , football

2009-06-06T07:21:14Z

Ok, the Blues boys went down to the maroons, I think I kind of expected this . The Blues need a breath of fresh air, the selectors need to either wake up and pick players that are currently in form disregard their popularity in previous years, or get out and let others who are willing to give things a go come in.
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I completely do not like the way in which the selectors are making their choice, it's been what 11 rounds that they got to choose from, but what they do is just pick on form from last year, for example Brent Kite. I get that Brent Kite played his heart out last year, I saw it and I admired the way he played last year, I mean he did get Clive Churchill metal last year. But that doesn't mean he gets the go this year , they need to pick on form, not on experience or not the form that the players were in last year or for the past 3 years. That doesn't matter anymore, I swear to God.
I know there's bias in me saying this, I am a whole hearted Doggies supporter, but I think the General should be put in as fullback and Gidley moved to 5/8 , this is what everyone else wants. I do agree that Robbie Farah did and would do a better job in the hooking postiion than Mick Ennis , based on their forms this year. I completely agree. Another player that deserves to be in there is Tommy Learoyd Lahrs, I haven't seen him play to much, but the amount that I have seen him play, I don't think he would let us down if we gave him the opportunity to play in light blue jersey. I just want to see something different and something sensible done for once. I just have a few players that are out of place. I think the selectors have taken a huge step towards a win bye refreshing the team and bringing in new players, but also leaving some experience in the team .
Anyways that was the choice and then there was the game. We didn't get beaten by much, but there were clear, clear weaknesses in the blue jerseys. I'm just listening to something on the radio and a man has rang in saying that us New South Welshmans have no pride in our team, I think that is half true, because it's halfway through the season and teams are losing players for rep duty and then they have a huge risk of not returning to club footy due to many different reasons. And then again some of the greatly inform players don't get chosen, then why should we really care? Try to make the selectors choose according to the form of players this year and I will get behind everysingle player on that field , knowing that they're all meant to be there and are best in NSW at what they do.
JARRYD HAYNE- one year he's a dud and the next he's jjust on fire, I think he is back in the form that we saw from him in 2007, in the 2007 origin, he can lead a team. I am very happy for what playing with fiji has done to his game and his career. He is just an amazing tallent. Not looking at the disallowed try, he still played great and didn't blow his game just because a close try was disallowed. Reminded me rather of Idris
Out of rugby league, I'm watching union today, babas vs wallabies, I wanna see sonny play. I just miss seeing him on a field with a ball, no off-field disgretions to worry bout cuz he plays for my team, just a game on tv simple as that. I just want to see him do what is just amazing at doing, play.
Reni's test sample B gave a positive test. He has been banned from the game for 2 years, but for some reason I feel that was the last we saw of Maitua. We won't see anymore, he played like he didn't want to be playing and that does not win you games or even get you into good first grade teams for that matter. He had no passion, he didn't look disappointed or appologetic towards the Sharkies fans and the fans of the NRL. I don't get how he could do that to the fans and just walk away with out an explaination. What he did I consider worse than what SBW did to us, Sbw gave to the team on the field. He didn't do anything. But I hope he gets himself together and does something good for himself.
My boys are playing broncos next friday . I hope they some out on top

I want to forgive you

2009-05-22T08:29:07Z

Okkkie very quick post
I couldn't watch SBW's interview yesterday , I didn't think it would be that intense. But then my mum told me today that he had a full apology session. So I got onto my laptop and googled the vid straight away, no matter what others say I'll always have a soft spot for this kid. I watched the video and I felt about a billion emotions rushing into my heart. I didn't know how to feel. The fact that he wants to come back and can have his own ways is getting me angry, but then the thought of having him back in the blue and white jersey is just so overwhelming . I know nearly all the doggs fans hate him now and even he said it in his interview, but that doesn't mean that if he doesn't survive in rugby or boxing that I don't want him in the team.
The only slight problem that I have is that now the dog's don't get any bad off-field headlines, but if he comes back we might get some bad off - field headlines. And that is the very last thing the team and the fans need right now. And honesly it's all upto Todd, the club owes him one.
That's all just happy to see him back and all fit just like before.
He'll be in the news for a couple of days till he leaves. I just wich him all the best in life as I always have.

HAPPY DANCE!!!!

2009-05-03T08:43:35Z

OMG !
Today's game literally had me on my knees praying and hoping that my dogs will come home with that win . The win which they truly deserved. Now we are at the top of the table , where we deserve to be. I thought it was a great effort from the dogs and the tigers... in my opinion who ever gets the blues no 9 jersey will be the most deserving.
I just wanted to let my joy out... just so happy with the way my boys are going

All it needs is a bit of passion

2009-04-26T08:13:09Z

I am very happy after hearing that my boys have come to win the 4th game in a row, 6th one of the season. The fact that they have strongly put everything that happened last year behind them, especially the boys who were in the team last year.
I didn't watch the game but from what I have read and heard Ennis played great , doesn't he always? Naa but he got man of the match and put on report for a "chicken-wing" tackle , hope there is no charge.
You know what I don't want to lose Ennis to rep footy, I'd rather see Farrah play, Ennis is needed more at the dogs than in Origin.
I think if not this year then certainly if nothing happens, then next year we will take out the premiership.
I'm very proud of the boys , and as I have said before Ben Roberts has not failed to impress, honestly this guy has shown all of us that nothing is impossible.
We have the tigers next week they have been playing great for the last two weeks we need to really play better than we did today.
Great job boys, and oh yeah is Jamal fat? I think the game decided for itself.... so shut up dt.

DT should shut it's piehole !!!!

2009-04-24T06:19:51Z

Ok , so you don't get enough headlines to run in a day so what do you write about?
An 18 year old footballer who's got a bit of excess skin as fat!!!!!! Jeez honestly they need to go get a life! It makes me sick to even think what kind of article these people will come up with to get money. This is purely trying to gee up the fans to think that "OMG look how fat that kid is!" If he is killing it on the field and can thrash opponents around than that's enough really.
So first, they publish a picture that no one really cares about , then tell Idris that the fans are crticising him (which honestly , if you're a true fan you shouldn't be criticising the poor kid) . Next day they publish another article saying that the manager has come out and said that Idris will turn to drinking if people keep criticising him.
What is this a way for the Daily Telegraph and Idris' manager to earn money?!!!! Leave IDRIS ALONE!!! you tards that really have no job...
This isn't the first time the work of DT has been rubbish, they've done it with SBW now they're on it again, and it's always the DOGS go find someone else to beat up.
And honestly what problem is there if an eighteen year old kid is a bit fat, it's baby fat for Lord's sake. If the media doesn't stop publishing shit on the kid he will turn to alcohol then they'll come out and say oh it's the fans.... most of the fans don't give a crap cuz he's killing it on the footy field.
I don't want him to walk out on the club because a bunch of idiotic news reporters decided to publish a random picture that will bring him down! He's great talent and I don't want the club to lose another player that could potentially be better than SBW .
JUST LEAVE IDRIS ALONE!!!!
If you call yourself a "fan " and are criticising Idris then think of being and 18 year old attempting to do your HSC and play top grade footy at the same time. Just a question , when he tried twice in the manly game and a number of times in other games, for one minute did you think that he may have weight problems?
NO!! I don't think so , so just shut your pie holes, if the kid thinks he has excess fat then he will do something to get rid of it. If he's getting OBESE then you can say something. For no just stup up and leave him alone

doggy_sgirl @ 2009-04-20T13:03:00

2009-04-23T03:08:06Z

I know I''ve changed my header a few times now , but I just don't like the way they don't go in well, so I think I'll just keep trying till I get it right.

We're prepared to 'die' for the jersey

2009-04-21T05:11:47Z

I was sitting at the dinner table last night quite worried about some things. One of those things was the future of Josh Morris, I'm not happy to say that he is out for approx. 8 weeks , but there was speculation that his season could have ended . To hear that there is more of J.Morris left to see I'm happy, because he has been lifting the team up, and after seeing the boys come to this point I would hate to see it all fall apart.
I'm saying that I'm upset about losing Josh from the team, the Manly seaeagles have never been in this much trouble for the past few seasons. They have lost 4 games straight and have only secured 2 wins, in those two wins they had their star Brett. There's been confirmation that Brett Stewart who won the only 2 games this year for Manly is out for approx. 12 weeks due to surgery on his knee.
This means a whole heap of things, first this means hell to Manly, the defending premiers will have to struggle to get to the top 8 . As for Brett's spot in the State Of Origin team it will be given to Kurt Gidley. That is a massive blow not only to Brett but also to Manly and the blues this year. I'm not as upset that he's leaving Manly , but the 4th loss in a row for the blues will be painful indeed.

That's Brett Stuart. Now to the boys in the blue and white, my bulldogs, I am so happy for them. I watched Sunday's game and the smile on the faces of the boys, the energy and pride in their hearts, as Feleti said about Parra , I will say about the boys , they have enough pride to 'die' for the blue and white. We always started seasons off in the bottom eight and in the last few rounds played our gutts out to get to the finals, but this yeah the story is different, the dogs have started off in the top eight. Last year , about every bulldogs fan complained about the departure of SBW, reni and Mason, but look where they are now , unhappy in France, in the team tipped to get the wooden spoon and in terrible form out of the origin team, and look where the team is . They thought they were bigger than the teams, the dogs have proved them wrong.

I hope this season will be the season that we lost in 2002, the boys and the fans deserve that one back. I hope the boys take out their best game on Sunday, we need to smash the raiders , there's no sympathy. I have never loved footy so much ... and Noddy, I'm pretty sure everyone who said they didn't want him at the dogs are eating their words, he's done everything for the team. Since Morris is out , we'll be seeing Idris back on field , something I've been longing to see.

doggy_sgirl @ 2009-04-17T18:00:00

2009-04-20T08:31:31Z

hmmm... Ok a week to go of my holidays... well so called holidays...
I don't know how to thing of it , either way it's distressing... I don't want to go back to books and a teacher but .. then again I've been looking at books this whole holiday.
It's like you look forward to your holidays and then two weeks later there they go, the next thing you know your packing your bags to go back to school , to face teachers and books and all ugly things. It's just the pressure it puts you through that is painful , then there's expectations that are just too high to ever be reached, but that's a whole different story.
I need to post more... I think ... yeah and more graphics stuff... I'll do that soon got heaps of stuff just lying around...
I was actually wanting to change my header ... it's sort of the same it's still got Idirs in it but it's just a different one and i can't even be bothered to do that I'm getting really lazy.

Yeah that's bout it I guess.. that's just how boring my life is at this moment and I can feel that it won't get anymore interesting.
Ooooo... Dogs smashed the eels... it wasn't anything special, but still . There was weakness in the defense earlier on , Gus was just like oh the dogs are going to be very tired the second half... I think they came out more energised then they were in the first half. Nine tries against three now there's something to look at. The raiders will be good opponents they have spirit and can actually bring some competition. Terry Campese is just wow!!!... lol
There's something I've been trying to figure out , what the hell has K Moore done to Idris... why isn't he in first grade... don't tell me Daryl's better... that's just a load of rubbish. I want to see him play ... we need him ... the wins are like tight wins we need to smash teams. Our attack is ok but defence needs work, oh and something I realised while watching the game yesterday, this is very random.
Ben Hannat looks like the bunde bear... lol look
that's the bunde bear .. now heres Hannant

Oh the header i wanted to use looks like this
not that different from the current one really

And that's absolutely it from me I'll make sure I do like an icons post soon... more like an icon dump..

Long time no post

2009-03-28T05:42:40Z

Hey folks,
Naa I'm not dead ... not yet anyway. I was on holidays now I'm back at school and back on LJ. I have changed my header after a long time of wanting to , it features Jamal Idris, The teenage wrecking ball. He is a beast... not literally, he can tear a whole deffence line apart and he's shown us he can.
mmmm... how much I miss my boys ...

Stuffed Server

2008-12-18T03:04:38Z

Ok ,
I'm not dead... My server is though ... Mozzila firefox will not let me post! I have to use Internet Explorer , but that's ok as long as I can post. I tried to post the other day but the whole computer crashed, then I figured out that it was my server. Now my LJ cut isn't working!

I have so much to write. Ok so there are many things that are really concerning me at the moment. I think the one most concerning me is Reni's situation . It was sad to see him leave , getting sacked for his behaviour, that wasn't something Reni kept under control. Now , I haven't only had to sit here and keep my feelings to myself for the second time but I have to watch him suffer. I think his exit is more painful than SBW's for some reason... in regards to the justice and injustice . Reni has come out and said that if he doesn't find a club to play for in 2009 he could go bankrupt... Ok I don't remember that being the case with SBW, I don't think this game has a heart anymore. They say it's for the good of the club , but in my opinion the club isn't going anywhere if all they're going to do is sack players. Either way , I hope Greenberg was right this time.

There's something I wanted to post since ages ago ... but I thought I'd do it after the whole drama died down a little. I made this after I got my head around everything and had made a decision as to how I would feel about it . I think the banner shows quite well how I felt and will always feel about SBW leaving. He is one player that I would never forget no matter how "bad" he was off -field.I want to remember him for the good things he did while he was in the club and he is only 23 he may come back , you never know.

Another bitter sweet news I came across was Justin Hodges and his "personal problems" I hope he gets better and sorts things out and I hope to see him back on the field. I consider him the best center now that Mark Gaznier is gone.

In other news, I will be on holidays for a month, I'm going overseas to Singapore and Nepal for a while, so that will be a nice break , but that means I can't post on LJ that often.

That's about it from me for this once, will keep posting ...

MANLY 2008 Premiers !

2008-10-06T04:24:36Z

Hey ,
I am so happy and excited, but in a sense feel sad and sympathetic. Yesterday, I sat on the floor of my living room with my eyes glued to the television for 2 and a half hours. I was happily absorbing all the good vibes that the grand final rugby league of 2008 had to offer. It was a very hyped up event. It was a repeat of last year's grand final , Manly Warrigah Sea Eagles against the Melbourne Storms. Melbourne having beaten the manly side last year were excited to play the team again and hopefully go home with a second win against the same team. But then there was the sense of revenge that was boiling up in the blood of the manly team. The game would be one to remember for sure... maybe not for every one.

The game started off as Manly and Melbourne being quite the equal favourites to win. But who knew that melbourne's win was in the hands of their suspended captain Cam Smith .
Manly took the night by storm coming in to beat the storms 40 nill. I was enjoying the whole win as I thought that manly deserved a win, the beaver and bell deserved the win and not to mention what a fairy tale ending for them both. A very deserved one.
The whole manly celebration was heart melting, it was just wonderful to see the efforts of the team pay off. But the happiness started to wipe away when I saw the teary face of Matt Geyer, who unfortunately unlike beaver and bell didn't get a good end . And then came the worst of all Israel, the poor guy he is only 18 and he has to leave the team... his face was all red and covered in tears... never wanna c him in a grandfinal losing team. Made me feel bad about the score.
And brent kite took out the clive churchill medal which I thought was great.

hmmm.... I haven't yet addressed the gossip surrounding SBW's home sickness and possible comeback into league.
My question how can you be homesick of a place you don't respect as home? He never respected Australia as his home he always talked bout New Zealand being his home and I'm not saying it's wrong for some people who are brought up there. But the media I think is just constantly feeding this dieing issue to give it a rise again. The poor guy doesn't know what he is doing that is why I can't come up to dislike him like every other former fan of his. I disliked the fact that he walked out , I disliked the fact that there was no honesty and truth in the matter, I disliked the way which he left us fans all wondering and worried. I think the fans that said they had forgotten him were either kidding themselves or never really saw the true person he was. i don't think that I could go oh who sonny when someone said his name, and I wouldn't remember him as the guy who walked out on my club, I would think of the good things he did for the club that came to end because of Team Mundine.
If they do let him comeback and play he would never come back to the Bulldogs because, knowing him as a person the pain that he would be put under would be one that would be unbarable for him. So, I would think he would either go to the New Zealand Warriors or to the roosters to become like the tenth person that the roosters have taken away from us. I think that would hurt more than him being in france. But then again if he isn't happy in france I guess he has the right to come back here, he just wouldn't be able to live like he once did.
I would be ok if he did come back to the dogs though. I don't care how many ppl hate him , the game has turned into a business and according to the business side of the game SBW returning will mean more wins so yeah.

Undeserved win

2008-09-21T08:01:52Z

I sat there on my bed with the TV on channel nine, sports, footy, as usual I was not yet into the game. The game was one that would see the farewell of great players and possibly a coach, that was probably the best coach the NRL has ever seen. The game was not as hyped up as I thought it would be, after all it was only a semi-final match. But what was not realised was the mere fact that this was going to be the one game that would be won out of sheer luck, nothing else but sheer luck. If there is one team I would not hesitate to support after the dogs it is the Broncos, I don't know why but they seem so much like the dogs, in the sense that their players are the closest that I could think of being a bulldog. Just humble boys that don't complain, go out there on the field play the game, and when it's time to have fun off field just have fun and cruise around.
To see them lose was like to see my dogs lose all over again just in different colours. I hated the fact that they lost, not because I supported them and they lost, I didn't like the fact that the Melbourne played anything but football. The players were all over the place and the respect I had for the likes of Greg Inglis, Cam Smith and Billy Slater just disolved into thin air. Cam Smith didn't stand up for the things he did wrong (did practically a grapple tackle on Thaiday), Billy Slater was apathetic. He was so ice hearted didn't think of how the Broncs would have felt about the lost, and no one, not one single person in that team mentioned the end of Wayne's career. They had no respect for the wonderful competition the Broncos gave them.
I personally thought that the Melbourne played awfully bad, if they play on like this they surely will get beaten. I won't ramble on no more because I'm frustrated and upset.
hmm... there's this whole article on the Daily Telegraph website that says that Australian's hate SBW more than Bin Laden (however the hell you spell his name) I thought that was a bunch up absolute jack. Any ways off the SBW topic i just wanna foget about him.
Oh yeah Finally got BRISINGR ( third book of the inheritance cycle)
We got our formal notes in the mail. I ain't going so i don't really care, who's gonna pay 85 bucks per head to go to a hall and apparently eat microwaved food ewwwww.... I'd rather eat at home.
Well, won't be on as much my trials are in three weeks and school certificate in like 7 weeks , in panic phase right now. LOL

Prelims

2008-09-13T07:05:28Z

Hey,
I haven't had the time to watch footy lately, so I've not been watching it for a while now. I finally decided that I missed it too much, the whole joy of sitting on the couch holding a cushion and cheering or cringing whenever something happens. I think that in this time I have realised the real joy of watching footy, and I have learnt to appreciate it.
Yesterday was the first game of the finals (it was the preliminaries) played between the Sydney Roosters and Brisbane Broncos. Let me tell you one thing, yeah I live in Sydney, so technically yesterday I should be cheering on the Roosters and hoping and praying that they win. If that's how you think, then you're wrong, I dislike the Roosters as a team, people may think, oh so what Mason, Anasta, Myles and Ogar decided to join them? I don't only dislike the Roosters because they came along to take 4 of our players, that depended on the players and for three of them I have nothing to say because it was the fault of a person who isn't involved at the club anymore (thank God). I dislike the arrogance of the Roosters, the fact that they love jumping to conclusions, and also the fact that if they don't win they have to find someone else to criticise.
So, last night at round half past seven, there I was sitting in front of my tv, thinking boy I've missed footy. I made it clear to my family that I was not going for the Roosters I was going for the Broncos, the Broncs are a better team to go for in my opinion than the roosters, or some other teams in the top 8 this year. First of all, I respect most of their players, the way they play and unlike the roosters don't go bad mouthing their opponents when they go down.
The first half of the game got me thinking, oh god what hope is there, the Roosters will get a crack at the finals. The way the broncs were playing wasn't at the top of their game the fist 20 minutes or so. As usual a game is a game and until the last second you don't know how it's going to be. The broncs slowly slowly started to lift up their game, every single player in the brown and gold jersy played like they wanted to be there, like they wanted to win. That is what I think got them that far. Fairly early in the game, mark o'meley the ogar knocked out Joel Clinton and Corey Parker was at some point of the game hit in the face with the shoulders of David Shillington. This didn't make the brons get all frustrated, and I love that about them, they are so calm and settled. I loved the 14 pass try, that was simply one of the most amazing tries. I thought the crowd number was a bit of a let down but you know that's not at the best conditions.
I thought there needed to be more of Darren, he was good, but if he lifted up more the win margin would have been larger. I loved how Karmicheal just kept playing nomatter what, that's the same with Luke patten and Justin hodges when they get injured, pure perseverance. I was just skimming over comments on the daily telegraph website, and a number of them are bout the cheap shots delivered by the Roosters, I'm not going there though.
I just thought it was an awsome game, I would love to see that in tonight's games. I hope and pray that the Raiders and Dragons win so the Roosters can just crawl back into their hole.

I also decided that it was time I made some icons, so I gathered some Nrl pics of nice action and made some Icons. The icons are under the cut.
[x2] Karmicheal Hunt
[x3] Denan Kemp
[x1] Joel Moon
[x1] Isaac Luke
[x2] Israel Falau
[x1] Ben Roberts

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Whole new look

2008-09-06T06:44:08Z

I really felt that my lj needed to be reved up. It needed to take the fresh turn. The whole brown and grey sort of saddened me. So I went to look for a whole new layout. I found this one that's more fresher and brighter than my old one, I got exactly what I was looking for . Credit goes to it's creator. I thought that if I had to change my layout then I should change my header too. So, I took some time to whip up a header on the doggies.
The doggies are losing hope for this season, but I made a header to show that nomatter what I'm still proud to be a BULLDOG. In other news, this is karma at it's best, Sonny Bill has broken his leg. Not saying that's good, but it's just proving that karma exists. hehe

When you look me in the eyes

2008-08-02T08:12:08Z

I decided that due to all the controversy surrounding SBW at the moment I will pull the header down and put another one on. But that does not mean that I will stop making graphics on SBW , I am still a fan.
I don't think I could ever hate him
The new header is featuring the Jonas Brothers.

lost

2008-07-27T08:08:26Z

I am lost, completely lost and nothing but lost. I don't know what is going on behind the scenes. Ok Sonny Bill Williams has just left Australia yesterday, how does that work he was meant to play tomorrow. Ok that's nothing where is he? did he really sign with france? did this take months of planning to pull off? did anyone know of this (apart from his flippin manager)? Is Greenberg lying? What is going on? Did SBW really go to France? Did he go somewhere else? At this point I am not blaming SBW because I can't even get the facts straight. There's sources saying that Toulon says he hasn't signed with them then there's the other sources saying that he had signed it a month ago, and there's the websites on Toulon with his profile in it. What the Hell is going on? Us fans need a picture here all the info is scattered, He's banned for life, what if he comes back tomorrow to play (this is my dream and hope ) What then? what is the NRL going to do let him play or not? There are only questions that are coming into my mind no answers. But the thing is everything he has done in the past few weeks has been amazing, that adds up to a perfect end to a career, he just couldn't finish it off the way he wanted to. When he go the manager I said the manager was stuffed.

I don't know what to say and what not to say, I want to follow the crowd and bad mouth him, but then what if money was an issue. That means that I would have to turn around and bad mouth his manager not that never did. SBW only realised that he wasn't getting payed enough after Khoder became his manager. That's something that not many people are realising before they blame sonny for this act. I hope that what ever he does he hasn't signed a deal with france or even if he has he realises that he made a very stupid decision and comes back, but then he won't be able to play NRL. See this is what is so stuffed, no one really knows what he has done. I don't want to believe a word that comes out of his manager's mouth. I knew something was dodgy the moment he tried to manage SBW.
I hate this all. He won't be able to play anywhere, I want to though desperately would like to see him playing at the bulldogs after he leaves his stupid manager. So that is why in my books sonny is not to blame for this. Not yet any ways , until any further detail it's his manager's manipulative nature to blame. The same one that saw Anthony Mundine breach his contract. All I say is that this is resolved ASAP.
I only wish SBW good luck.

So sweet

2008-07-26T06:08:40Z

I wasn't really in the mood to post today, but as I was surfing through the net I came across this letter at the kennel. It was written by one of the members there and who I thought is a very very loyal and concerned Bulldog fan. This letter I presume was written to Sonny Bill during the time that he was pondering on whether or not to leave the club. The letter touched me sooo much it nearly left me in tears, it sort of shows how we, the bulldogs helped SBW grow into that physically massive thing that he is today and strengthened him to be one of the best rugby league players in the game's history.
Anyone who was getting all angry at Sonny leaving (including me) would have atleast changed their thoughts a little bit about the issue after reading this letter.

Dear Sonny Bill Williams c/o Bulldogs Rugby League Club.

At 16 you signed with our club playing SG Ball. In the following years you made your way up the ranks till in 2004 you had your NRL debut.

Do you remember that first try in your debut match? I do and I knew at the time "this guy has talent". The Bulldogs club did not give up on you.

In 2004 your first ever NRL premiership on debut year. Do you remember how that felt?

In 2005 you did a knee but we all stuck by you as loyal Bulldogs fans and wished you would get well soon.

2006 you proved to us you were fit and once again decimated other teams with brilliant on field performances.

2007 and you had us all worried because we were not sure we could offer you the contract you wanted, but eventually you signed with us Bulldogs, and us fans realised we had someone truly special in our side. Someone loyal, honest and hard working, but also incredibly humble. You won a lot of hearts and fans.

You yourself commented on your signing in 2007 stating "I'm happy to be staying here with the boys and I'm happy to be here with the Club. I want to be a Bulldog for life. The club is just as much apart of me a part of me as I am of the club. I love the Bulldogs". Do you remember that? I do and it made me proud as a long term Bulldogs fan to hear such a highly sought after player give the club such a large rap.

Look at your tattoos. One of them will remind you of the team you won a premiership with. Don't turn your back on them and us.

Off field you have had your problems.

Drink driving in 05, Falzongate in 07, smashing a photographers camera in 07, speeding fines in 07, and finally late 07 the public urination charge.

Through thick and thin the Bulldogs club and fans have stuck by you, and refused to turn their backs at you.

All I ask is that you as a player, seriously consider the situation you are in, and not turn your backs on us.

Regards,

Concerned Bulldogs Fan.

I thought that this letter would have even changed the minds of that steel hearted, so called manager of SBW, Khoder Nasser.
I'm so thankful that SBW isn't leaving.

Badaal pe paon hain

2008-07-25T08:48:03Z

meme taken from farrah_m

Ok this is how it goes,
1. Put you iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

1.If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Engine Gadima (WTH?)

2.How would you describe yourself?
Salaam Walekum - Adnan Sami

3.What do you like in a guy/girl?
Dil Na Diya - Krrish [ok this is very much stuffed]

4.How do you feel today?
Baby Love

5.What is your life's purpose?
For You I Will - Teddy Geiger [sacrifice ?]

6.What is your motto?
Jee Le - Aag [I guess so just live llife to the fullest hehe]

7.What do your friends think of you?
Race is on my mind- Race [hmmm... would have to decipher that]

8.What do you think of your parents?
Thode Badmaash- Saawariya [haahaa... that was so random]

9.What do you think about very often?
Aadat Ho Chuki- Koi Aap Sa [ Ok then]

10.What is 2 2?
Tenu Leke- Salaam-e-ishq

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Dhoom Again-Dhoom [that is so true...always having fun...dhoom machale]

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Love generation - Bob Sinclair [wow]

13.What is your life story?
Punk rocker - Sandi thom [That is so stupid , I do not wish I was a punk rocker]

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Hoth Rasile - Welcome [ what's that suppose to mean]

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Bubbly- Colbie Callait [ They keep me smiling and I want them to stay around for ever hehe that's so true]

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
Saakhiyan - Bhool Bhullayia [ ok then]

17.What will they play at your funeral?
Clumsy - fergie [ that's why I died hehe]

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Keep holding on- Avril Lavigne [ just keep holding on... that so makes sense ... not]

19.What is your biggest fear?
Nach le [ wow dancing]

20.What is your biggest secret?
No air- Jordan Sparks feat. Chris [ my secret is that I can't breath with no air alright then]

21. What do you think of your friends?
Chhabeela- Saawariya [ yes very interesting]

22.What will you post this as?
Badal Pe Paaon hain - Chak de india [ mmm okk not yet but hopefully soon enough]

Losing it's touch

2008-07-17T05:21:29Z

Hey people,
I am back in the chair of boredom. That's why I went crazy and made some icons and banners and as you can see I changed my header too. As I was scrolling through the daily telegraph website I came across an article regarding Sunday arvo's game. I said something along the lines of SBW playing with a bad back. I was kind of upset to hear this, but I wasn't suprised, Sonny does these kind of things to see a win. I understand that there are other players that are battered and bruised before they come on to play, but who plays injured and plays an incredible full 80 minutes getting man of the match? I hope he doesn't push himself too far, he already has a knee problem, don't need anything else.

Here's what's in LJ cut:
[x3] Reni Maitua
[x3] Tahshan
[x1] Preity Zinta
[x2] SBW

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The other thing that has been put out there a lot is that the bulldogs are going to have a strong team next year, with the likes of Brett kimorley, Ben Hannat, Micheal Ennis, Josh Moris and more of our juniors pulling in like Ben Barba. I hope this will help the dogs a lot, even though our players are flying all over the place maybe this is just a bad year for us and we can recollect ourselves next year.This year has just been all over the place with mason and sherwin and ogar leaving and the big rumours on SBW going union, it's all gone now , we can start clear. And last Sunday's win sorta gave it to the fans that the club is settling down.

Finally the turnover

2008-07-15T07:13:03Z

I finally got to see the turnover my team deserved on last Sunday. We played against the broncos and beat them 26-18. The Broncos had their long anticipated return of captain, Darren Lockyer. The team relied only on Darren's return, this dismantled their game plan that the bulldogs were prepared to fight against. Despite the fact that our injury toll was hideous and I hope that is never the case ever again,. the players that could come on to the field played and awsome game. Seeing that look on their faces after that long deserved win left me in awe and joy. I loved the fact that we won, but to see such a good team like the boncos go 8 games with 2 wins is very sad. The match was a well deserved win for the doggies, the training they have put in and how many players were out there playing with minor injuries that could have gone devastatingly bad is just amazing. Andrew left a message on the website for the fans thanking them for all the support that we have given to them through out the 8 losses in 9 rounds. Why wouldn't we , we know they will train day in day out just to win the game and do us fans proud. I'm just really proud to be a BULLDOG
man of the match went to SBW which again was most deserved, and personally I think he sorta deserved atleast 1 dally M point from the roosters game. He played an awsome game like he always does and scored a try, so well deserved 1000 dollars. I think Arana Taumata and John Kite also deserved credit as they played an awsome game too.

PROUD TO BE A BULLDOG